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TO UNDERSTAND DEATH BY DYING. ___________________________________ ■ NAME : 課長D。
___________________________________ ■ SEX : ♂
___________________________________ ■ BIRTHDAY : 9月22日
___________________________________ ■ HEIGHT : 188cm
___________________________________ ■ WEIGHT: 155kg
___________________________________ ■ SCENT :【PLATINUM EGOÏSTE】
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Chrome Hearts
____________________________________ I like DIR EN GREY,
and I dislike pretty much everything else.




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Monday, December 31, 2012

CXXXV · New Year's Resolutions

Hi, 2012 is soon coming to an end, and I can't remember ever having any new years resolutions before. So I think I might share it with you guys, since I actually have a few new year's resolutions

Wise words from my hero and role model, Patrick Bateman.

My primary resolution (or goal if you will) being to get in shape. And by that I mean to lose weight and get toned. I know everybody has "get in shape" as a new years resolution, and all those new people will come to the gym and just be in the way. But I actually planned to not go to the gym. Just change my eating habits and do some basic at-home-work-outs and walk. I'll probably have a lot of music that I want to listen to so that's great when walking.

One of my favorite guys to watch on YouTube, excellent on the growls.

My second resolution is to buy myself a decent microphone to hook up at home, and get some karaoke going. One thing that I've always been envy of when it comes to Japan is that it's so easy to practice. You just go to a karaoke place and you have everything you need. I've always loved to sing, I think this will be a great way to not only have fun but also to improve my singing a lot. Since it's something I really enjoy doing, and I might eventually use some of my own material as well. My problem so far is that I can't really hear how I actually sound since I don't have any good sound recording equipment or a monitor at home. So hopefully I'll manage to get this as soon as possible!

My recording of "DIFFERENT SENSE" from London, with over 80 000 views on YouTube!

And my third resolution is to see Dir en grey at least three times this year, (stepping it up a notch since the last tour). And since they have an EU date already confirmed it seems like the tour will kick off in June. So hopefully I'll catch a few shows together with my crew. I still regret that I didn't go to Paris to see them when they had two shows at Divan du Monde, which was "their best show ever" according to some friends of mine that have seen Dir en grey way more times than I have. So hopefully I'll catch as many shows as I possibly can during 2013. That will make it a great year. So I'm hoping for the best.


Do you have any new years resolutions or goals for 2013?
And if you have any tips on foods/diets or workouts etc I would appreciate it a lot!

And a happy new year to all of my readers, it means a lot to me that you read and the ones who comment - you're the best!
I think one of the greatest perks with having a blog is all the people you get in touch with, so commenting means a lot to me.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

CXXXIV · Lucka 20

20. What do you want for Christmas?
Since it's almost Christmas it might be time to post some things that I want for Christmas (or anytime really, haha.) I mostly want clothing, accessories and shoes. But I also want an iPad and a huuuuge Rilakkuma that I can chill on, kinda works like a couch/bed!

You see the shorts that has a red arrow next to them? I've been looking for them/similar ones for over a year now. So i would really appreciate it if somebody knew what brand they are/where to buy. Or even similar looking ones would be OK. From the looks of it they seem to be leather cargo short. Mine doesn't have to be leather, but the more similar ones you can find the better. So if you know any palces that might have similar shorts please let me know!
(It's the shorts that Kyo wore during the TOUR2011 AGE QUOD AGIS, mostly during the US tour. As seen on their latest DVD)

What do you want for christmas?
Please leave a comment below, take care!

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

CXXXIII · Lucka 16, 17, 18, 19

As you might notice I decided to include several dates in this entry. And the reason is that I don't have pictures of everything that should be posted haha.

16. A picture of you as a kid
I don't have any pictures of that, I might have somewhere but I'm not going to go look for it. And I didn't know how to pose for shit back then anyway so it would just look stupid, so fuck that.

17. A picture of you as a teenager
Here's a picture fo me when I was 15, and it's probably the only one I have from that year. I don't really save any pictures of myself. And since I was eating my face looked weird, haha. So yea. Does anybody recognise the shirt? I'm gonna do a little cut at the bottom, so if you want to see it you can just open it.

18. A picture of your family
No, not going to post a picture of my family. This is my blog and they have nothing to do with it. So I'm not going to post any pictures of my family, they probably don't wanna be here anyway.

19. A picture of you today
Haven't been taking any pictures of myself, since I'm sick. So yea..

One of my favorite death metal albums!

Saturday, December 15, 2012

CXXXII · Lucka 15

15. A picture of your favorite quote.
Since there's no picture of it, and I don't bother doing it. I'll just include a picture and the quote below.
I also have another favorite quote, 「苦しさも忘れ自分も忘れて。」(To forget suffering is to forget myself.)

The reason you haven't felt it is because it doesn't exist. 

What you call love was invented by guys like me, to sell nylons. You're born alone and you die alone and this world just drops a bunch of rules on top of you to make you forget those facts.

 But I never forget.

 I'm living like there's no tomorrow, because there isn't one.

Friday, December 14, 2012

CXXXI · Lucka 14

14. A picture when you weren't aware of being photographed.

A picture of me and my friend Carin in London (Oxford Street I believe) during BIG BANG's ALIVE GALAXY TOUR 2012.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

CXXX · Lucka 13

13. A picture of your favorite things
I was thinking a while on what to include in the picture. I though just including my laptop would be pretty lame lol. So I picked some of my favorite things from my biggest interestes (-fashion). Since I believe most people enjoy at least one of these things haha. Sadly I don't have everything in the "best" editions, but I'll write down the things that has a special packaging! (I like to own things you know). 

Have you played/seen/read/listened to any of the items I've listed? 
I'm curious to know what my readers like, so please drop a comment below if you have anything on your mind that I should check out!

Video games:
Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater (PS2)
Silent Hill 2 - Special Edition (PS2)
Final Fantasy IX (PS)
Final Fantasy VII - Regular/Original Edition (PS)
The Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past (SNES)
Super Metroid (SNES)
Super Mario Bros. 3 (NES)
Mega Man 3 (NES)

DIR EN GREY - UROBOROS (Deluxe Limited Edition)
DIR EN GREY - DUM SPIRO SPERO (Deluxe Limited Edition)

Oldboy - Steelbook double disc (Bonus Material/Behind the scenes)
The Godfather - The Coppola Restoration (Five discs, all three films + over four hours of extra material)
Full Metal Jacket

American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis (English, original language)
Battle Royale by Koushun Takami (English, translated)

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

CXXIX · Lucka 12

12. A picture of you when you look happy

Since I don't smile on purpose in pictures I don't have any pictures like that. "But why don't you smile?" Because where I live you don't ruin a picture with a smile. Every picture taken is a "serious" picture, but I guess there's more room for "lulz" now days since the images are digital. But why break a tradition?

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

CXXVIII · Lucka 11

11. A picture that represents your future dreams.

To be on a stage or in front of one.
(And to be rich of course, so I could do those things)

Monday, December 10, 2012

CXXVII · Lucka 10

10. Your favorite animal

My favorite animal is probably cats, especially persian cats. I know it's not a persian on the picture. But I only save images of animals doing "people things" and I couldn't find a picture of a persian. I like cats that are fat and fluffy, preferably lazy as well. 
I'm not a big fan of dogs though, but I like Welsh corgis, they're cute.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

CXXVI · Lucka 9

9. A picture of your room

Well, this isn't a picture of everything in my room. But besides this I have a closet, desk and a bed, that's all. My room is very small. So I guess this is the "main piece" in my room. From left to right there's some video game consoles (which aren't currently hooked up), my Dir en grey collection, some movies, magazines, sound system, monitor and and a few video games. I have a lot more stuff, but they're in other rooms haha. I guess my room is pretty "nerdy".

Saturday, December 8, 2012

CXXV · Lucka 8

8. A picture of one of the best nights of your life.

12th of August 2011.
 What else would it be besides a DIR EN GREY live?

Friday, December 7, 2012

CXXIV · Lucka 7

7. A picture of you showing how you always want to look like.

A picture from the pre-badring days. Too bad I was lacking in style back then, but I'm trying to get back to my former glory again. It would be too sad if I peaked so early in life. But I have some neat plans for up upcoming trials of fire. Maybe, one day I'll be back. (My pants are a bit lose, so my legs aren't as fat as they appear in the image lol)

Thursday, December 6, 2012

CXXIII · Lucka 6

6. A picture that describes how you feel today.

Same 'ol, same 'ol.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

CXXII · Lucka 5

5. A picture of you from this summer

I don't really have any pictures of me from this summer, there's probably some on my blog somewhere. But I usually delete all pictures of myself after a while since they're just taking up space on my hard drives. But this was drawn this summer, so I guess it counts!

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

CXXI · Lucka 4

4. Somebody you look up to


I guess this wasn't that surprising, at least not if you'e been reading my blog. But I guess what's more interesting is why I look up to him, since I believe not many of you might know that. I'll try to keep it short. I have a tendency to talk about this forever and nobody wants to hear about that.

The most obvious reason is that he's my favorite singer, but there's much more to it than that. What makes him so great is that he's true to himself. That he's always trying to live the life he wants to live and never suck up, never budge and never give in. I think that the hardest thing in life is to be truly honest with oneself, and go for what you want. And never to give up. That is probably why Kyo is such an inspiration to me, because he doesn't give up.

Because this world doesn't want you. 

It wants you to become like everybody else, to fit in so the machinery can keep going as it does. I just think it's sad, when I see people I knew and how "ordinary" they've become over the years. How all their personality just disappeared and they become "normal". That is my biggest fear in life, to be forced to become "normal" and to give in. To not be true to myself. 

He shows that he has the strength, to keep going on and do what he wants to do. He has the guts to do what he "shouldn't" do, and to do what he "couldn't" do. He's been into music ever since he quit school at the age of sixteen. And if you've heard his early demos from previous bands form 1993. You can hear the huge difference in his voice. How all his hard work has payed off. That's what happens when you have the will and strength to be true to yourself. 

He's constantly pushing himself, he works harder than he should do. His body can't keep up with it, but he's still doing it, because he wants to and has to in order to live a life without regrets. And I believe we all want to live a life without any regrets and do what we truly love.

That is why I look up to him.

Here's a picture of Kyo when he was the same age as me.

CXX· 「輪郭」PV Teaser

It's 05AM, I was asleep and I heard my phone vibrating a lot. I had no idea what happened but I check my phone to see what was going on. Partik was calling and sending a million text. DIR EN GREY had released a PV teaser for the new video. I'm personally not a huge fan of fully animated PVs, but what could be more suiting for a song like 輪郭 (contours / outlines) than a fully animated PV? The style seems very similar to their 2006 single "Agitated Screams of Maggots" (Here's a link to that PV if you haven't seen it).

So, what do you think of the PV? Any direct thought? 

Monday, December 3, 2012

CXIX · Lucka 3

3. A photo of your best friend(s)

Photo by Helena K. & Emelie L.

Andrei and Patrik. I tried to look for a picture of them together, but I couldn't really find any good/up to date ones so I just merged two together. I haven't actually known them for that long, I think it's about six and half years now, and the reason I met them in the first place was Dir en grey.
And I've also realised that we're very similar in a lot of ways, so I guess that's why we connect. We've come to that point that we have developed our own "language" and "culture" over the years, things that an outsider would never understand, so there's no point in trying to explain it further.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

CXVIII · Lucka 2

2. A picture of yourself at home

No, but honestly. When I'm at home I don't wear anything special, usually I just wear my Adidas Firebird black/gold track suit. I've probably posted pictures of it before, but I don't bother lurking for it, it's just a track suit. No point in dressing up at home haha.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

CXVII · Lucka 1

Hi, it might be a bit late now, but fuck it. I'm going to do it anyway. So, first off I'm going to explain what the hell is going on. I planned to do a Advent Calendar on my blog, known as "julkalender" in Sweden. It starts at the first of December, and has a little window for everyday, as a little countdown to Christmas Eve. And "Lucka" means window, so I planned to make a little update everyday. So, please look forward to it!

1. A picture of yourself that you like.

A picture that Heikki in October. I wanted some new photos and I had some new idea for light so we gave it a go. I haven't released pictures form this shoot on my blog before, because I wanted to use them for future designs. But since it's my favorite picture I guess I could share it with you. Probably the closest to a "proper selca" that I have haha. I know some people will probably complain about only showing half of my face, but the other half is covered with hair so there isn't really much to see.

CXVI · 無の幸福、参列者と首

Without noticing, 
I lived in self-centeredness, as a result,
Inevitably, I lost everything.                                                                                                                            全てを失うことになりました。

Thank you, so far, and good bye.                                                                                                     今までありがとう、そしたさようなら。

In order to not cause trouble,
Reliable, not losing myself,                                                                                                                                        しっかり自分を失わずに

I hope I can keep on living with myself.                                                                                                      生きて行けたらいいですね、俺。
Thank you, me, good bye, me.                                                                                                                       ありがとう俺、さようなら俺。